Shorts

I always write in English and then translate some of it into Portuguese because I am too shy to write in my own language. If that makes any sense at all. It does not really matter.

I am well aware of my intellectual vanity, and of my excessive judgment toward others. It seems hard to resolve that issue, not just in my head, but also in my heart.

I wonder if someday I will manage to detach myself from the fear of judgment, completely disregard whatever others think about me, and all that talk about how nothing matters and soon we will become dust of the earth. Which is very true.

I realize these things are chains to my creativity and capacity for creation. However, I feel that my perception improves day by day. I have been appreciating all sorts of small things:

• Feeling happy seeing cows while traveling and breathing the fresh air (my country, and my city, have very good weather most of the time).
• Creating cron schedules for database backups.
• Running and roundhouse kicks.
• A conversation with a simple elderly man who showed respect and kindness a few months ago. To this day, it still remains in my mind and brings me a breath of life. He was herding some cows, just passed by, and greeted me with a genuine smile.

But all of that, those feelings, will fade away like the morning dew.

MY STATE OF MIND RIGHT NOW.

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More often than not, I wonder why people spend a lot of time in the gym lifting, either to get lean, strong, or whatever their goal is, while at the same time they do not appear to invest the minimum amount of time trying to understand the basics of nutrition or, to some extent, endocrinology.

I do understand outsourcing the required knowledge, and I do it myself sometimes, to go and pay someone to do this or that, because our time is indeed valuable. However, if you spend a lot of your time doing something, you should at least understand the basics of it. Especially when it’s a matter of health, and, well, you are exerting a lot of physical effort yourself.

There have been countless times I saw endocrinologists, personal trainers, and nutritionists doing very dumb stuff, most probably due to incompetence or, in a few cases, a lack of the empathy required to work in the area.

Why wouldn’t you spend one or two hours to understand something you do every day?

MY STATE OF MIND RIGHT NOW.

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The idea behind this post was to serve purely as a placeholder, but I decided to write something anyway. More substantial writing will live in the articles section. I have gone years without writing. I may have lost some of the creativity I once seemed to have in abundance, but that is fine: it will come back.

Maybe it is routine. Maybe it is work. Or maybe it is simply my state of mind — the one that sometimes behaves like a pendulum. It does not matter much to me how it shows up, because there is a time for everything under the sun.

I imagine that actively referencing sentences is a bit silly, and annoying too. Every writer worth their salt searches exclusively for the objective correlative. Every now and then, that will happen again in these posts.

“Occasionally, I let a teacup fall and break on the floor on purpose. I am not satisfied when it does not put itself back together. Someday, perhaps, that cup will return.”

MY STATE OF MIND RIGHT NOW.

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